Thursday, January 10, 2008

Dark Mountain


It's taken me a few weeks to actually wrap my mind around the whirlwind that was my trip to Vail this year, but the past few days have allowed me to unwind myself enough to really gauge what took place on my short but memorable journey to the middle. 

First of all, it was awesome. Second of all, it was awesome. But aside from its awesomeness (in pretty much every conceivable way) I really feel like I grew as a person. 

Sounds lame, I know. But I'm serious. I got to ski in some of the best snow I've seen in a decade. I got to spend time with my family in one of the most exclusive ski towns on the planet. I got to hang out with my awesome brother, who amazes me more every day with his strength of heart and an uncanny wisdom he's somehow acquired at such a young age. I met someone in a van on the way to Vail from the Denver Airport who has proved to be a real gem of a friend, both in ski country and in Los Angeles. And I also met a guy who worked in a bar who turned out to be not just a guy who worked in a bar, but someone who helped me see that I've got a lot more living to do and I'm worth taking a huge risk for.

I'm usually pretty ready to come home from Colorado each year after being stuck with my family for 8 days. But this year, I realized I wasn't stuck with anything. I was blessed. And I wept as I flew over the mountains on my way back to Los Angeles. I wasn't just sad to be leaving the mountains, but sad to be ending a Christmas vacation I will never, ever forget. 

So, thanks to those of you who helped make that nostalgia possible. I may shed a tear now and then thinking back on the 8 short days of December 2007 I spent in Colorado, but it won't be out of sadness. That I know for sure...

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Late Night Conversations With Myself


First and foremost, I fully expect that this entry will never be seen by its intended reader. However, it is a world wide web, and who am I to assume that in its vastness this tiny gesture couldn't somehow find its way to its destiny. In any case, here it is:

I was thinking, as I often do, and upon such thoughts as, "Why doesn't google automatically capitalize words like my BlackBerry does?..." I came across the pondering, "Hmm... Incubus is kind of a cool band."  This is not a new idea, of course, as I've enjoyed this band for some time. Perhaps not as much as Jimmy Eat World or Muse, but quite a bit nonetheless. And speaking of Muse.... 

This Incubus song should have come out circa 2003... it would have possibly saved me from a world of heartache. Although, "Time is Running Out" seemed to have given me only a giggle of a clue so I guess it's touch and go with these things. Any way you slice it, though, this song pretty much sums up a relationship I was both cursed and blessed with....

I'll never forgive you, but I'll definitely never forget you either. You know who you are........

Incubus - "Oil and Water"

You and...
I are... like oil and water
We've been tryin'
Tryin'
Trying
Ohhhh... to mix it up

We've been...
Dancing... on a volcano
And we've been cryin'
Cryin'
Crying
Ohhh... over blackened souls

Babe, this wouldn't be the first time
It will not be the last time
There's no parasol that could shelter this weather

I've been...
Smiling... with anchors on my shoulders
And I've been dyin'
Dyin'
Dying
Ohhh... to let them go

Babe, this wouldn't be the first time
And it will not be the last time
There's no parasol that could shelter this weather

We've been...
Lying... to each other
Hey! Babe, let's just call it, 
Call it
Call it
Ohhh... what it is

Oil and water...